After a long absence over the holidays New Year’s Eve feels like the right moment to jump back in to my little corner of the internet. Between work, holiday celebrations, travel, and a few winter sniffles and aches, December didn’t leave much room to write. I hope the season has filled you with love, reflection, and appreciation for what 2016 has brought us, and for what we will leave behind at the stroke of midnight tonight. This past year has been hard. I do not think anyone will look back at 2016 as a bright spot in the history of humanity, but sometimes moments of darkness and turmoil are the only way to stir up something new. I have faith that we will enter the New Year with our eyes a little more open and our minds a little more sharp. I hope we can ask the hard questions and use the challenges of the past months to remind us what we want our lives to be. There have been other hard years and this certainly will not be our last, the real legacy of 2016 will be where we go from here.
Personally this has been an incredible year for me. My resolution twelve months ago was to find my footing in this new chapter of my life. I wanted to feel comfortable and confident in my own skin again, and I wanted to challenge myself. When Eleanor was born it felt inevitable that the person I had been would be swallowed up by this huge change in my life, but it didn’t end up that way at all. Instead I grew and changed in my new role and I feel like the same person, only more so in every way. It wasn’t easy, but I let myself feel validated in my goals and my efforts and tried to be kind to myself as I found my way.
It took so many months for me to pick up my camera after my daughter was born and when I finally did I think it is fitting that we did it together. She was almost always my subject, but in a way we were my subject as well. The photos I took this year will always be special to me because I can see what a year of growth it has been for the both of us. I have come so far as a photographer and I am proud of myself. It is not easy to create something and share it but I wrote about things I was passionate about and I took the time to document our life together and I am proud of what I have created.
I leave 2016 behind excited for the year to come and what I can accomplish. I have so many plans and I can’t wait to share them. Right now I am not making one resolution per say, instead I am going to keep pushing myself out of my comfort zone. I want to keep creating and working and feeling confident in all that I put my mind to. If there is one thing a full year of motherhood has taught me it is that I am capable of so much more than I ever imagined.
For those of you who have popped in here to read what I had to say and share in some of the things that have caught my eye over the past few months I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart. I have received nothing but support and kindness and positive feedback and it has left me feeling inspired and grateful.
Happy New Year to all, and cheers to a safe, peaceful, 2017.
Top image and kid, author’s own.